Week 34.

Its 3 weeks to full term at 37 weeks! Omg I am really getting the jitters. How will baby look like? How will her personality be? Will she look like mummy or daddy? Dr siow has predicted that she will be about 2.8-3kg at birth, and although I was hoping for a 3.2-3.5kg but that’s okay, as long as she comes out healthy and I have a smooth delivery.

No one will ever understand how im feeling and what im going through now. The aches and pain, the pushing pressure on the pelvic area, the sleepless nights, the anxiety, and most of all, the one that is getting on my nerves the most, incontinence!!! I feel like I cant control my pee and poop. Sometimes the pelvic pressure is so strong I feel like im going to pee on my pants. And when I do run to the toilet, it is just a dribble. Sigh!

But I know I will miss the kicks and pushes I get in my tummy now, the only special feeling that only I can experience and the only bond I have with my baby. No one comes close to having this 40 weeks of personal bonding time. Hee. Okay, daddy sometimes get the kicks and punches, but it feels so special for me to be able to feel and protect the baby 24/7.

As we prepare to welcome her arrival, we have started to wash her clothes (we realised we got too much clothes!!!), and her towels and swaddles and bed sheets. We also packed our hospital bags in case of any emergency. I just need to throw in my toiletries and clothes. Over the next few weeks we will also install the car seat and check out if our stroller can fit into our hatch back boot.

Im starting to feel heavy and clumsy that I had a small fall last Friday. I was sort of rushing to the toilet and I didn’t see a little kerb. So it seem that it all happened slow motion style, I remember that I was trying to protect my belly and from falling flat so the impact from the fall was on my left knee and left palm. And then the next thing I knew, hubs ran over but by the time he ran over I was standing already and I just said I needed to go pee. And then in the washroom, there was a throbbing pain on my knee. Oh yes and I remember when I fell, I heard a lot of people muttering “she fell she fell”, sorry to say but no one came to help me up. ;( I googled abit about falling down in the 3^rd tri and it seems that it should be ok as long as no direct impact on the belly. But my mom and in laws were concerned so hubs and I emailed Dr Siow just to inform him and to ask if there is anything to look out for. But so far, I guess it was just like a roller coaster to baby, she is well protected by the amniotic fluid and shouldn’t have any impact. Phew. First and hopefully last scare in this pregnancy.

I realised that as the pregnancy progresses, the more anxious I get about baby’s safety. Not so much about what I been through but its more of the love that been growing for this baby. I want to see her and I want to hold her, I want her to be healthy and safe. That’s why I guess they say a mother’s love is always the strongest.

Am starting to keep my colleagues in the loop for my work matters, just 3 more weeks to full term and anything can happen from there. Although baby may choose to stay in until 40 weeks since its so comfy in there, but lets see. Perhaps the next time I update will be her birth story. Heh.

Till then, time to relax and get more sleep!

Today, we hit the big 3! Has 30 weeks just past like that?

I was telling the husband the other day that I really loved trimester 2 and that it seemed the fastest. But truth is, tri 1 and tri 3 is the fastest. Because by the time you find out you are pregnant, it would likely be half way thru tri 1. And then in tri 3, depending on when you deliver, tri 3 may not be the full trimester anyway.

The last visit to Dr Siow was also good. I passed the GTT (Glucose Tolerance Test), they smsed to say my results are normal. So next up is the GBS swab test at Week 35, this is just to make sure there is no bacteria, this is to prepare for natural delivery where baby will pass through the birth canal and out. If there is bacteria detected around the private regions, then have to administer antibiotics prior to the delivery. So praying that I don’t have such complications.

It has been quite good that my pregnancy has been uneventful in a good way. Im just praying for it to continue being a smooth and safe for me and baby.

We are almost prepared with the essentials. Now all we need is to get ready our documents, prepare the hospital bag and to wash baby clothes and items. Waiting for our helper to join us on 1 Jan and we can go full steam into washing and sterilising. My colleague ask what happens if my water bag burst at work? Told me to prepare a towel in office and in the car. Im freaking out. What if it really happens? Can I still drive to the hospital? Or will I be in too much pain? Should I ask hubs to come to fetch me there? Or should I dump my car and take a cab? Will I be able to have a proper shower before I deliver? Argh!

These days it has also been quite tiring for me physically, walking around or even sitting too long causes a lot of pain everywhere. The back especially. Some days my legs hurt and feel swollen. And the skin on my belly feels like its stretched to the max and is going to tear apart. Some days I ask hubs if the baby is going to come out from my belly button because it is so sore and painful. I know the belly will be stretching more in the next few weeks and im just going to relish in the last 10 weeks of baby in me and cherish these moments (and pain) before I get to see my baby princess.

I cant wait to see her, honestly I am a mix of feelings. Excited and nervous. Excited over seeing this human being that I been growing and protecting and how she would look like. But nervous over the whole delivery process and if it would be smooth. Pain is one thing, I just hope both of us will be safe.

10 more weeks, baby girl. See you soon!